Grieving The Womb

It's definitely not easy, but necessary.

I was prepared for this.

I knew it was coming.

But it still came unexpectedly.

I was talking to my husband about something Bub did as a baby last night and wham.

The memories of him & my angel babies in my tummy were over whelming.

Tearing up just thinking about it again.

I know I made the right decision, but it is still definitely hard some days.

I read this website & this one and they helped.  Although I did not have an emergency hysterectomy as these women did I feel the pain of loss and I commend them for sharing their journey.

Hystersisters of course also had a lot of insight as they always do.

I know I will get past this and I have my family behind me with all of their support.  The teary eyes will pass and joy will fill it's place.  I am just taking it day by day.

Often you've wondered why,

Tears come into your eyes,

And burdens seem to be

Much more than you can stand.

But God is standing near,

He see your falling tears.

Tears are a language,

God understands.

When grief has left you low,

It causes tears to fall,

For things may not turn out

The way that you have planned.

But God won't forsake you now,

His promises are true.

Tears are a language,

God understands.

God sees the tears,

Of a brokenhearted soul,

He sees the tears,

And hears them when they fall.

God weeps along with men,

And takes them by the hand.

Tears are a language,

God understands.

Written by Gordon Jenkins in 1971

Must Haves

Or a list of things I think are helpful if you ever have to go through this.

1. First and foremost- A loving and supportive group of people around you before and after the operation.  Without my family and friends I would be in the fetal position crying most days.  They have been my rock of support through this whole thing.

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2. A Body Pillow - This kind not the straight kind.  You will need it in the hospital and at home.

3. A Rice Pack- for your back and for your shoulders when the gas rises to your shoulders from surgery.

4. Massager - also for back and shoulders

5. Yoga Pants - These are wonderful, because they have the core support waist already in them.

6. Cute night shirts - you can pair these with your yoga pants for a comfy outfit so you feel semi-normal. I have both...thanks Amy xoxo

7. Comfy Shoes - to go with nightshirt and yoga pants if you want to go outside for your daily walk or ya know the grocery store because seriously who cares right. 

8 & 9. Ginger ale & Saltines - They go hand in hand and are a must with the meds they give you.

10. Last but not least a sports bra or one of the many they advertise on TV.  You don't want people to stop by to check on you and your girls are flying all over the place...

p.s. you will need this.  Just keeping it real. Take it with you to the hospital.